controlling my emotions,understanding the rational.
Monday, August 18, 2008
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shanice: thanks sister. i'll try to. (:
wilfredyap: LOL. spam my tagboard? for what? i'll takecare de. you too! :D
HOTBABE!: how can i not credit my hotbabe? you were there for me when i was weakest. you were there squarting with me in the middle of the road when everyone else stared. you gave me unlimited hugs! how can i not credit you? :D i love you too!
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had my olvl english oral today.quite easy.dint go for night study.i know that even if i go, i wont have the mood to study.school today is bad.not much studying today,but kinda hard for me.i rather have a fully packed lesson then a slacky lesson.someone told me,"control your emotions,dont let them control you.."thanks SOMEONE.i understand lurh,but i just cant accept it.its just like what chinee's brother said,"understand the rational up there,but not inside."and its hurting so much inside.im feeling so miserable,but all i wanna do is to run into his arms...i felt like a total fool.
getting myself hurt again & again, relationships after another.
meryl asked me this question,"dont you ever lose faith in guys?"
every past r/s that failed made me even sure that the next guy will be better.
and they are always better than the previous.
but this time, i have to admit,im kinda scared.
what if all the guys dont meant what they said?
what if all the guys arent willing to commit?
what if, just what if all of them just want to lift me up and see me fall?
i really thought that i was loved.
i really thought i felt your love.
on the 29th of june, where we had our first kiss in the train.
the kiss which left me blushing through the rest of the ride.
on that very same day where you gave me a necklace as my birthday present.
and the smile on your face when i put it on.
on the 9th of august, where you held me in your arms,watching the fireworks.
where you gave me a gentle peck on my lips.
that kiss which made me so happy and proud.
which made everyone else envious and happy for us.
everything else was just as sweet&happy..
i was so happy when you introduced me to your family as your girlfriend.
i was so happy when your mum invited me to join your family for picnic.
i was so happy when your dad dint stare at me like how he stared at others.
i was so happy when your sister spoke up for me.
i was so happy when your brother irritated us.
i was so happy when aunty gloria cooked nice food for us.
i was really contented.
but now,im only left with the memories.
kiss goodbye to happiness.
imsorrybutiloveyou.
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