someone told me,"you can only trust yourself. because you know that,you'll never get betrayed."
well, thats if you dont trust anyone else.
and thats something scary.
if you dont trust anybody,dont wait for anybody to trust you.
some piece of advice,
if you feel that you're being left out,you can find things to do to entertain yourself.
youo dont have to be in a group gossiping together all the time.
if you're left out,you can always take out a book and read! thats what i normally do. :DD
or play some games on your handphone.
or sms people who'll keep you entertained.
or eat! another of my doings :DD
you dont have to be invited to join in a conversation.
you just have to blend in and enjoy!
if you decided not to, you cant blame anyone for leaving you out.
ANYWAY,I THINK THAT....
we're all too childish.
seriously dont you feel that all of us are being so petty over small matters?
we get angry over being left out, over receiving attitudes from someone else,over the tone we used to speak,the way we just ignore someone else..
i can predict, 5years down the road,when we think about all this quarrels, we'll be laughing our heads off about how childish we had been..
i guess its time for you to reflect now.
&this thing is between you&me.
nobody else can help us..
if you consider me as your GIRLFRIEND, i think we should face this problem together and get over it..
its just a few months away till we part.
we may not even be seeing each other that often already.
so,cherish this few months.
lastly,treat others how you want to be treated.
if you give us attitude,we'll.....
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..
..
..
..
..
..you get what i mean.
:D
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Friday, August 22, 2008
im the bad guy again..
bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy!bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy! bad guy!
DDDDD;
its alrite,i'll get use to it.
isnt it?
what can i do?
thanks for your blessings,but we wont leave each other for any other people.
i love my smelly boy!
:DDD
nobody stinks like him but still managed to keep me close beside him.
HAHAH.
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
im so glad we're finally back together.
:D
REWINDED FRIDAY13.
sweetie, i love you lurh!
:DDD
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
tags;
dOts: LOL. you very bo liao leh.
cheryl: thanks sister! love you too!
Max: thanks! maybe you're right! :D
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20082008.
isnt this day just so special?
i still love you!
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Monday, August 18, 2008
tags;
shanice: thanks sister. i'll try to. (:
wilfredyap: LOL. spam my tagboard? for what? i'll takecare de. you too! :D
HOTBABE!: how can i not credit my hotbabe? you were there for me when i was weakest. you were there squarting with me in the middle of the road when everyone else stared. you gave me unlimited hugs! how can i not credit you? :D i love you too!
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had my olvl english oral today.
quite easy.
dint go for night study.
i know that even if i go, i wont have the mood to study.
school today is bad.
not much studying today,but kinda hard for me.
i rather have a fully packed lesson then a slacky lesson.
someone told me,"control your emotions,dont let them control you.."
thanks SOMEONE.
i understand lurh,but i just cant accept it.
its just like what chinee's brother said,"understand the rational up there,but not inside."
and its hurting so much inside.
im feeling so miserable,but all i wanna do is to run into his arms...
i felt like a total fool.
getting myself hurt again & again, relationships after another.
meryl asked me this question,"dont you ever lose faith in guys?"
every past r/s that failed made me even sure that the next guy will be better.
and they are always better than the previous.
but this time, i have to admit,im kinda scared.
what if all the guys dont meant what they said?
what if all the guys arent willing to commit?
what if, just what if all of them just want to lift me up and see me fall?
i really thought that i was loved.
i really thought i felt your love.
on the 29th of june, where we had our first kiss in the train.
the kiss which left me blushing through the rest of the ride.
on that very same day where you gave me a necklace as my birthday present.
and the smile on your face when i put it on.
on the 9th of august, where you held me in your arms,watching the fireworks.
where you gave me a gentle peck on my lips.
that kiss which made me so happy and proud.
which made everyone else envious and happy for us.
everything else was just as sweet&happy..
i was so happy when you introduced me to your family as your girlfriend.
i was so happy when your mum invited me to join your family for picnic.
i was so happy when your dad dint stare at me like how he stared at others.
i was so happy when your sister spoke up for me.
i was so happy when your brother irritated us.
i was so happy when aunty gloria cooked nice food for us.
i was really contented.
but now,im only left with the memories.
kiss goodbye to happiness.
imsorrybutiloveyou.
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Sunday, August 17, 2008

im feeling so *
you just wont understand.
went amk for roti prata lunch w/ jojo&chinee.
went tampines ikea w/ jojo after that.
went tampines mall w/ jojo aft that.
went century square w/ jojo aft that.
went home alone aft that.

thanks girlfriends&"hotbabe" for being there for me.
give me some time and i'll get over it.
meanwhile,i'll be needing all your support and hugs.
you're all im left with.
i guess, loving all of you will never cause me any heartaches.
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GAMEOVER.
great that you finally figured it out.
its good for all of us.
no point holding on ehh?
not your fault.
my fault.
this shouldnt have started anyway.
thanks for this 2months.
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Friday, August 15, 2008
GIRLFRIENDS' 19months!
:DD
thanks JOJO for remembering.
sorry for all that i've done thru all these time,
and thanks for forgiving.
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tags.
max;
yupps.its NC16 over here. when are you coming back to singapore?
let us know and we'll all meet up alrite?
:DD
you know the choir miss you!
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Never leave the one you love,
for the one you like,
Because the one you like will leave you,
for the one they love.
(what if the one that you like, loves you?)
The one you like will give you goosebumps;
the one you love will make you laugh
and send shivers down your spine.
When the one you like cries, you feel sorry for them;
but when the one you love cries, you cry for them.
True Love Doesnt Have A Happy Ending
BECAUSE True love Never Ends.
LOL.
this thing is what i found from a bulletin in friendster.
kinda true i guess?
If I don't know what true love is, how will I ever find it?
It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely.During his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart.
:DDD
GOD IS SOOOOOOOO SWEET!
*yayness*
bf just asked me out to town for movie with sasa,JL,JH&him!
:D
not lonely once more.(:
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Thursday, August 14, 2008




my fucking laptop died on me!!!! damn it larhhh!
idk what happened to lappy lurhh.
i cant type anything on the keyboard!
and i dumbly set a password for my lappy. ..
using my long-ago-repaired desktop now.
lucky me,its working well! :D
just that destop dont have msn live messenger.
only have window messenger. zzz.
ytd; HAPPY TWO MONTH ANNIVERSARY!
heeeeeeeees.
i dont know about you, but im loving you more each day.
i know that things arent this simple anymore.
but im willing to go through all these with you.
i will not leave you,till the day you leave me.
boyfriend came over at 7am.
i was sleeping,so after opening the door..
i went back to sleep! :DD
meanwhile,bf used the lappy.
kept waking me up,asking me to get ready to go out.
HELLLOOOOOOOOO?!!
where to go at 9am?
shops not opened yet ehh!
bathed and prepared...
went to downtown east cathay for movie.
LOVE GURU! :DD
super funny show lurh!
but kinda sick. LOL!
its NC16 show lurh!
my 2nd NC show.
went back to tampines mall to get our 2month puzzle.
wahhaha,shall load pics asap.
had dinner at home.
HOMECOOKED by KRISSY! :DD
i felt like a dumb housewife who waits at home for their dumb husbands to come home from work.
im the one who cooked, & the one who washed and cleared the mess!
GRRR! guys......
today;
accompanied jojo to tampines mall after exams today.
she sup to meet a blogshopper at the mrt station.
the 2 of us walked around tm & century sq till i suggested watching a movie.
called bf to come along.(:
asked JL&JH along too.
watched MEET DAVE.
LOL. its a super funny show can?
super funny.
went home after movie.
the rest of them went back to hougang.
oh well.......
no school tmr.
no dates, no shopping, no fun.
BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
that guy;
thanks for being honest..
sorry if you're hurt.
thanks for being there for me..
sorry i cant do the same.
&thanks!
'cause you made me laugh and forget the pain.
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
2mth tmr! :DD
chinese Olvl results out today.
i got a fcking C6!
wtf.
will get a retest.
DPA results out too.
fcking dissappointed again.
..
this what they said..
Dear NG PEI SHAN KRISTLE
Thank you for participating in the Direct Polytechnic Admission (DPA) exercise. We have received many DPA applications this year, and are heartened to read about your talents and interest in an applied education at the polytechnics.
In order to pick the most deserving DPA applicants, we have been strict in our selection criteria. We looked through all the DPA applications, considered the various portfolios and write-ups submitted by applicants, and interviewed selected applicants to further assess their talents and interests in the polytechnic courses they applied to. For certain polytechnic courses, we also requested applicants to sit for our aptitude tests.
We have given serious consideration to your DPA application. Unfortunately, we regret to inform you that you have not been selected for placement in one of the polytechnics under the DPA exercise.
Nevertheless, we encourage you to continue pursuing your interest in an applied education at the polytechnics. We have always enjoyed teaching students like yourself who aspire to realise your potential through our polytechnic education. You can apply to our polytechnic courses via the Joint Admission Exercise (JAE) and Joint Polytechnic Special Admission Exercise (JPSAE) conducted after the release of the GCE ‘O’ Level results. More information on these admission exercises can be found on the polytechnics' websites.
We thank you again for your interest, and wish you all the best in your studies.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!
sadded.
OFF WITH THE UNHAPPY STUFFS!
hotbabes. :DD
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Monday, August 11, 2008
heartbreaking.
but its all my fault isnt it?
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
so bored lurhh.
homed thru the day.
ALONE!
mummy's out with friends.
what the hell.
ate porriage for lunch.
ate the leftovers for dinner.
fck.
i wanna eat a decent home cooked food.
i miss steam fish!
i miss boyfriend too.
but decided not to disturb him since he's having fun out with family.
am i great or what?
:D
meeting ahchuan and class for lunch tmr.
lunch at 10.30am?
uh-huh?!
:)
meeting mt at 12.30.
meeting the blogshopper at 1.30
she better be there tmr.
or she's so gonna get it from us.
LOL.
the most i'll eat her up.
yumyum!
:D
gng for movie aft that wit bf,mt&boon.
MUMMY!!!
haha.
gonna watch the long-awaited show.
(:
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went for fireworks ytd.
supposed to go with boyfriend, meryl &xinde they all..
dint meet them in the end.
went with boyfriend,meryl,jiahui&shaoquan in the end.
alot of people lurhh.
i was so pissed with all the dumb policemen and "NCC guys"..
they block this road block that road.
like what the hell larh.
brainless one lorh.
say wad inside too crowded.
its not crowded at all larh.
outside the blocked area more crowded larh.
sorry babe, dint meant to flare up at you.
i was hungry and pissed marhh.
SORRY! :D
went for dinner at cafe cartel.
chatted and gossipped so much.
we missed the airplane shows lurhh.
sadded.
wanted to see the "heart" lohh.
crapped with meryl about how cheesy guys sweettalk girls.
LOL.
the fireworks this year not that nice.
but,its still great.
cos i got my sweetie with me..
&im so very happy.
:D
&our pinkyswears!
wahahahaha.
if tmr's gonna be my last day, i wanna change it for one yesterday.
i really felt your love for me.
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Saturday, August 09, 2008
someguy; got think too much meh? lol. its just random lurh.
JOJO; GIRLFRIEND! dont worry lurhh, IM A STRONG GIRL! :DDD
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okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, jojo asked me to post this in my blog.
"The craziest thing I've ever done for love is..
giving in so much to a guy, then later realising that im taken for granted.
Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 august 2008.
ORIGINATOR BLOG: www.underage-girl.blogspot.com" !
lol.
do spread around uhh.
its a Nuffnang MEME contest that jessica participated.
just tag her after you've posted this onto your blog.
You have to complete the statement starting with:
“The craziest thing I have done for love is…” (does not have to be long, write whatever you want, a story or a sentence) and sign off with this line “Catch Wall-E in cinemas from 28 August 2008″
free movie tickets to be given away!!
check out her blog for more details.
http://underage-girl.blogspot.com/
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Friday, August 08, 2008
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?
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FIREWORKS TOMORROW!
i mean seriously larh!
boyfriend finally is allowed to go alr.
:DDDDDDDDDDD
YAY-ness!
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HOT DATE WITH HOT BABE.
which obviously is me lurhh.
;DDDDD
went town shopping with meryl, aka, MY HOT BABE.
LOL.
bought lotsa stuffs!
:D
bought a new bag, a jacket, a long top & many cute paul frank panties!
:D
im so in loooooooooooooooove with P.F now!
wahahaha.
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Thursday, August 07, 2008
will lesbians be much happier in their relationships?
i mean like, not the part where they LOVE girls.
happier because their "lovers" understand them alot.
LOL.
nonono,dont get me wrong.
im a normal straight girl.
i love guys, not girls.
just suddenly imagined if my boyfriend is a girl.
then he(SHE) would be able to understand me.
not that julian dont understand me..
sometimes,guys just dont know what a girl wants.
he wont know how she feels.
he wont know when she's sad,untill he sees the tears.
thats how guys are.
but you wont know what to do w/o them.
just suddenly feel like talking about lesbi.
its a random thing alright?
:D
thanks girlfriend for lending me your shoulder.
i know that you'll be there for me.
dont worry about me alright?
goodbye.
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Monday, August 04, 2008
homed.
kinda early on a monday afternoon uhh?
surprisingly i got no place to go after my exams, so here i am blogging,
had maths paper 1 & social studies prelims today.
the maths paper is KILLER!
freaking difficult lurh.
killed almost all my brain cells.
i studied so hard for maths,but i still cant do it!
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!
whatever.
social studies is like....
i dont really bother lurhh.
cos im gonna flunk my history anyway.
hopefully my DPA gets accepted.
then i dont have to be worried about my exams alr.
x.x
going my night-study later.
6-8.30pm
what the hell?
nobody will be accompanying me back home later..
cos my dear friend haoxiang is sick.
so he's not going for N.S.
sadded.
science practical tmr.
but the best thing is that we dont have to wake up that early tmr.
my slot is 9.30am-12.30pm
but i got another bad news.
art prelims is on wednesday.
and i haven started anything yet!
FUCK ART LARH.
no time can?
need to study for physics whh is unluckily planted on the same day!
whats with the arrangements arh?
all the teachers ben si le lorh.
haish,but who to blame?
its bad enough that they chose to be teachers.
teachers=students' toy.
students' fav. past time is to see their LOVABLE teacher flare up and screeeeeam like mad women.
wahahahaha.
SADISTIC LURH.
nevermind,its only natural to b like this after studying non-stop for 13years.
and 3more years till you get a diploma.
maybe another 4-5more years to graduate from university.
which is like... CRAZY.
i dont wanna go uni lohh.
so waste time.
:DD
i guess i have to go get ready ler.
gonna be 5pm alr.
tatatatatatataaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
&i looooooooooooooooooooove JULIANYEO!
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Sunday, August 03, 2008
boyfriend's coming over later to have physics tuition with me.
hahahaha.
so happy lurh!
gonna have pizza for lunch??
:D
double the joy!
meet up with meryl at cathay ytd.
to study.
LOL.
studied at starbucks from about 6-8plus.
we can hear the fireworks,but cant see.
damn depressing.
:(
i wanna watch the fireworks!!!!!!!!!!!
hopefully darling's mum will allow him to go out on national day.
then maybe we'll go squeeze with the crowd at esplanade.
:D
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Friday, August 01, 2008
today is the first day of HGF.
i dint know until darling told my this morning.
what the hell..
i dont know if i dare walk to busstop on monday.
had english paper 1 prelims today.
the paper is okay.
after that,went harmony park watch darling,jiahui,ssq,chinee learn freeze and handstand.
LOL.
darling's mum came over to fetch us at 2pm to hg inter so he can make his ezlink..
went back to school after that.
slack around and chatted.
..
saw jesslyn.
chatted with her for quite long.
LOL.
stayed for "night-study".
left school at 7pm to have dinner at suki sushi with bf&jiahui.
went back to school at 8.20
left for home at 8.30
made haoxiang send me home.
right to my house door.
wahahhaha.
cos im kinda scared lorh.
he kept scaring me.
Thanks HaoXiang!
YOU'RE SUCH A GREAT FRIEND!
..
felt so much better after saying it out.
i'll change whatever i have to.
because i love you!
:D
fireworks tmr @ esplanade.
but i wont be going.
cos boyfriend cant go..
& its dumb to go alone.
gng with girlfriends show how "single" we are.
HAHA..
sadded.
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