Thursday, June 19, 2008
i dint blog ytd...ytd's.went bugis with meryl to watch the happening.its kinda scary.all the suicide and stuff.ppl watching bckwards,repeating what they said over again...its too scary..plus,its just me&meryl.figured that it would be tooo gay if we hug each other.so all we did was cover our eyes,ears&mouth.i covered my mouth to stop myself from screaming.after the movie,we went to watch around.but left pretty soon.mama prepared soup specially for me.cos she promised me 2days ago that she'll cook for me!
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sometimes i wonder if im happy with what i have now..my dad work his ass off all day long.i dont get to see him at all.when i go off to sch,he's still sleeping.when he comes home from work,im sleeping.i haven got a chance to talk to him as father-and-daughter since like last year?i rmb those days whr he will get off from work early just to fetch me home from meryl's house.late in the night,he never grumbles or whinned.i used to be so irritated but his naggings and stuffs.but now,whenever i calls him,he'll say that he's busy.if i ask him to fetch me,he'll ask me to take a cab home.even thou it means he'll have to pay.what can be so much more important than me?im even willing to wait till the morning just for you to fetch me.but you just have to say"im busy,take your own cab. i'll pay you back."seiously,i dont care about your money.i just want time with you.issit that difficult?i miss those days where you bring me&mummy out shopping,science centre,zoo...you never fail to try to explain to us why issit that the plants/planets/earth/animals are the way they are.i miss those days whr you nagged at me to study hard,protect myself from bad guys,save money..i want those days back.as for my mum,she happy now.seeing her happy makes me happy.as lest she's no longer crying and screaming like she used to.she used to stay at home all day long,watching tv,doing housework,gossipping on the phone..but mummy is different now.she goes out everynight to enjoy.clubbing,kbox-ing,dining.whatever it is,it never fails to leave me out of the picture.dont get me wrong.i looove my mum.i want her to be happy.she's happy making new friends and enjoying herself.so why not?the only thing is that,i dont get anytime with her anymore.she used to bring me out shopping everyweek.be it with her friends,or just me&her.we're always happy together.nowadays whenever i ask her out,she'll say that she's going out soon.she try to give me what i want,she let me have a boyfriend,buy whatever i want..are you trying to satisfy me with all this?the most impt thing that i need is my family.i want my mum&dad to ask me about school,life,relationship with fren/bf/gf.i want them to be concern about me.or at lest, PRETEND to be concern.2days ago,i managed to get mummy to bring me out.bugis is whr we went.went there to change the size of the tee-shirt she bought for a fren as bday present.she bought me a superman white cap.thou its just a $25 cap, i felt super happy.its been long since the last time she bought me something i want.all this time,she had always been giving me the money to buy what i want.she never knows what i like.after that we walked around bugis street.didnt buy anything.so we left bugis street.mummy wants to go home right after that.she's meeting her fren for a drink.so we went off.we're out for only 2hr ++.can you believe it?we took the mrt.so 1 hour transport.we only shopped for 1 hr++.its not that i dint buy anything.its that,WHAT THE HELL?you're only willing to give me 2hours?there's nothing more to say...just that,daddy&mummy,i miss those happy days.can i have them back?except for the arguements..i love you guys...im feeling vexed.but only you can calm me down.sweetie,i really love you.
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