Sunday, February 03, 2008
home thru th day..{will be continued,after i finish linking some people..}&im back!okay,stayed home today.its a great big deal since i hardly stays home on weekends.especially on sunday.its a super boring day you can rot.woke up at 8am,couldnt sleep anymore.eyes were swollen from crying at night.bf was being so great,consoling me even thou he was half asleep.i cant really get a main idea why i cried.but it th bits and pieces of everything added up whh made me break down."smacked" awaked by mingteck's words.decided t do my art and stay home.did 6source studies!3sources and 2development/studies each.i guess i realised im wasting my time not studying but shopping&slacking.i know its my fault tht mingteck scolded me.but yet, i made it seemed as thou he's wrong for scolding me.by right he dint even scold me.he only said some nasty things whh hurts.i made it such a big deal i cried t bf,jiahui,mama,chinee&vanessa.only chinee&sasa realised he was trying t wake me up.jiahui was so terrified bout me crying that he sided wadever i said.now i realised i had been so childish..bf only listened t me complained.thats all i need for him t do i guess.
&ofcos,boyfriend expects th same from me?
we said t study tgt,be it my house or any other place.
we promised mama t study hard,and we must.thanks mingteck buddy.you were trying t help me but i dint appreciate.i promised you tht i wont go out unless nessesary and would study hard.i'll try t make good my words.sorry for th temper..sorry chinee for being so against you ytd.i was in such a compettitive mode ytd i wanted t win whh ever arguements we had.neverthless,you treated me indifferently..when i was upset, you noticed right away and showed concern.thanks for th msg..you may not be my best friend,but i regard you as one of my closer ones.sasa.thanks for th comforting msg? it cheered me up by 0.00000000000000000001%(:you know i dont mean it.thanks for being thr for me.thanks jiahui,for chatting w/ me till late night even thou you're tired.you're a great friend.i mean it.lots of loves for all dee aboves.if i dint note down your names, it doesnt mean tht you're not my good friends.it just meant you werent thr when things happened.so,i love you guysjust as much.but not as much as cheesheng.he's my sunshine!(:mama made beehoon for me&her.lunch&dinner.serious, we had th leftovers from lunch for dinner.mama dint helped me w/ my art today.i did th studies and showed it t her.she was impressed.she was so proud of me,tht she made....rose tea!for me.just me.i was so touched by this small act of sweetness.issit me or th tea is just so sweet?bf's still having his tuition?he said t call me aft his tuition,provided he's in a good mood.is he in a bad mood?or his tuition is just not yet ended?i trust tht he'll call me.even if he doesnt,he must have a good reason.im gng msia on 6feb right aft school.will be back by 7feb night.8feb-bai nian at kwenboon hse w/ classmates.9feb-bainian at shaoquan's hse w/ friends.10feb-bainian at granma hse.i know its kinda late only gng on th 10feb,but..adults decisions.meaning,i will have no more than $200 from angbao this year.how dissappointing.im hard up on money alr.but i cant stop spending money.fucking bad habit.maybe i shall go over t bf's hse t bai nian too?
(x{- letter t cupid.dear cupid,let this valetines' day be a memorable one for me?at th very least,let me spent some time w/ bf..please let him know i love him..thanks.
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