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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
dint go to school cause of th stupid darn cramps. its soso painful lurh)
x made it hard to concentrate on studying. woke up at around 9plus.ate breakfast&studied. studied my chinese compositions & physics. th compo book im reading is like so cheem lurhh.physics alrite,studying chapter 5 ler.(: tmr's our 4th mth anni.bf's decision is like on&off.he awhile say want t go out celebrate,awhile say jst want t send me home,awhile say cant go out..durhh~ darling,can you jst simply make up your mind? ): i seriously dont want t stay home on an anniversary.but if you're rly busy,its alrite..i'll jst go&study w/ meryl somewhere quiet.i had been good girl nowadays.i studied w/o any persuasion or motive.i jst want t study hard,pass my examinations,get good results & get into t same poly as you(: i know its still long till then.but mummy said tht if i dont buck up now,its just gonna be too late.i'll never be able t meet my targets&dreams.talking about dreams,i had 2 very scary dreams last night tht caused me t burst awake crying.th content of th dreams were th same.i lost my bf.1st dream was abt bf breaking up with me&ignoring me&stuffs like tht.in th dream i was so pathetic.everywhr i go,i see him.but once i go up&talks to him,he ignores&walk away.&i remembered myself crying like siao.was rly tht pathetic.woke up by my alarm clock at 5am.felt my watery eyes&wet pillow..2nd dream was roughly th same.th only thing diff was tht,i dint even get to see bf.i went everywhr looking for him but i jst couldnt find him. th dream was so scary.i was so alone&helpless just looking for him.&ofcos,i was crying.pathetic)x&this time,i was woke up by my 2nd alarm at 6.40am.its th alarm to wake me up when im in th bus incase i fell aslp!&&&my pillow's still wet,my watery eyes remained&my face was wet with my tears..i told meryl,"i dreamt tht bf left me.." &her reply was,"..change your dream lorhh."these dreams better dont appear in real life.if i can cry just dreaming about it,i dont want t imagine if it really happens.i know it just gonna be worst.boy,im really deeply in love w/ you.
dont ever think of leaving me okay?
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